You belonged to the world’s perception
I belonged to their interpretation
A translation
Of their negative construction
Waiting with baited breath
Willing to undergo tests
I wasn’t the same as you
I wasn’t a name like you
I believed you when you said
“You can’t transform”
I believe you when you said
“You can’t come home”
I believed you
Because you were alone
Like me
All alone
In the back
Just the worst part
Of the best person
Here’s the best part
We were worse then
Them all
Cuz we were real
How does it feel?
They put you in a box of deception
The poster boy of nature’s imperfection
You’re just organization
Of sensory information
Willing to be discussed
Our relationship born to rust
You left me haunted
But not like you wanted
I’m not eager to abate you
But I don’t relate to you
You said you didn’t hate me
But a little lie too late for me
I believed in you
Because you were alone
Like me
All alone
In the back
Just the worst part
Of the best person
Here’s the best part
We were worse then
Them all
cuz we were real.
How does it feel?
You were a quiet boy, unlike your father
So he took you out to the water
The thought of drowning now weighs you down
Was he an ocean of hope or the old creek in town?
Batten down the hatches, lose all your attachments
A rough sail ahead, are you better off dead?
You’re chained to the sea—now you coast in belief
Pulling you to the blue space feeling in a barrier reef
Is she a beautiful creatrix or a cold hearted thief?
No floating lukewarm savior could tame her misbehavior
No sort of renovator could fix a temple built by a traitor
You will always live in the shadow of your dad
Years later and that still makes me so fucking sad
And you will always live in the shadows of my sad
Years later and I still want you so fucking bad.
